This is perfect. How often in your life do you get to say that without qualification, equivocation, or hesitation? I don't recall ever having experienced complete perfection before. Well, once...but let's not go there.
I hardly ever listen to classical music anymore. Or to any really great music. I mostly avoid things that evoke deep emotion.
I'm walking on ice, and underneath, there's an ocean of sadness and pain. And it's fine: I like the cold. I'm okay. Just, I don't want to drown down there, because I almost did. It's not thin ice: it will support my weight. But there are thin spots, and I know where they are, and avoid them. Mostly.
I'll be a wreck for a week, or a month, now. But it was worth it.