Putting up my Fence

 

And that will be the last thing for this summer's work--my orchard and vinyard will be DONE.

200 Pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, here it is, as promised: 200 pounds, baby! Yeah!

As I expected, I still need to take off another 10-15 pounds and tighten things up a bit; drop down to about 12% bodyfat, so my skin can recover. Then I'll start eating and working out again, and put 10 or 15 back on in muscle: I've had to sacrifice some muscle to lose all this fat. But that's One Hundred and Fifty Pounds that I've lost!

What I'm NOT going to do: get a fake tan and ridiculous tooth-whitening, shave my body, and generally become one of those ridiculous mid-life crisis narcissists who you see in the ads and fitness magazines. I will have to buy some new clothes, though. Even these pants, which I bought about two months ago, are too big now.

What a beautiful day...feels like Autumn is coming.

"A writer is a person for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people."

-- Thomas Mann

Beethoven String Quartet No. 14 C Sharp Minor: 6th movement

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -- Matt 5:8

"Who is pure in heart? Only those who have surrendered their hearts completely to Jesus that he may reign in them alone. Only those whose hearts are undefiled by their own evil--and by their own virtues too. The pure in heart have a child-like simplicity like Adam before the fall, innocent alike of good and evil: their hearts are not ruled by their conscience, but by the will of Jesus. If men renounce their own good, if in penitence they have renounced their own hearts, if they rely solely upon Jesus, then his word purifies their hearts. Purity of heart is here contrasted with all outward purity, even the purity of high intentions. The pure heart is pure alike of good and evil, it belongs exclusively to Christ and looks only to him who goes on before. Only they will see God, who in this life have looked solely unto Jesus Christ, the Son of God. For then their hearts are free of all defiling phantasies and are not distracted by conflicting desires and intentions. They are wholly absorbed by the contemplation of God. They shall see God, whose hearts have become a reflection of the image of Jesus Christ." -- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

210!

I'll post pictures at 200.

"It matters more that heaven should exist than that any of us should ever get there."

"In deepest solitude there is a road right out of the self, a commerce with something which, by refusing to identify itself with any object of the senses, or anything of which we have biological or social need, or anything imagined, or any state of our own minds, proclaims itself sheerly objective." -- C.S. Lewis

"We give thanks to Thee for Thy great glory." -- Book of Common Prayer

"I Am." -- God

I've decided to try ending the antidepressant meds and see how it goes. Be nice to have feelings again, as long as they're not all black and heavy as concrete. Stand by for results.