Victory

It's still sinking in, that the battle with my weight is over. My whole life. Since my parents' divorce, when I was six. And now I've finally won--all that's left now is taking captives and riding down fleeing peasants. And burying the dead.

Not that we can become complacent. There will come a time of feasting and revelry soon, but then we've got to build castles on the borderlands, and establish patrols to watch out for new invaders. We must remain vigilant.

But I need to be clear: this is not my victory.

Non nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed nomine Tuo da gloriam.

194

My weight starts with a 1.

Putting up my Fence

 

And that will be the last thing for this summer's work--my orchard and vinyard will be DONE.

200 Pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, here it is, as promised: 200 pounds, baby! Yeah!

As I expected, I still need to take off another 10-15 pounds and tighten things up a bit; drop down to about 12% bodyfat, so my skin can recover. Then I'll start eating and working out again, and put 10 or 15 back on in muscle: I've had to sacrifice some muscle to lose all this fat. But that's One Hundred and Fifty Pounds that I've lost!

What I'm NOT going to do: get a fake tan and ridiculous tooth-whitening, shave my body, and generally become one of those ridiculous mid-life crisis narcissists who you see in the ads and fitness magazines. I will have to buy some new clothes, though. Even these pants, which I bought about two months ago, are too big now.

What a beautiful day...feels like Autumn is coming.

"A writer is a person for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people."

-- Thomas Mann

Beethoven String Quartet No. 14 C Sharp Minor: 6th movement

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -- Matt 5:8

"Who is pure in heart? Only those who have surrendered their hearts completely to Jesus that he may reign in them alone. Only those whose hearts are undefiled by their own evil--and by their own virtues too. The pure in heart have a child-like simplicity like Adam before the fall, innocent alike of good and evil: their hearts are not ruled by their conscience, but by the will of Jesus. If men renounce their own good, if in penitence they have renounced their own hearts, if they rely solely upon Jesus, then his word purifies their hearts. Purity of heart is here contrasted with all outward purity, even the purity of high intentions. The pure heart is pure alike of good and evil, it belongs exclusively to Christ and looks only to him who goes on before. Only they will see God, who in this life have looked solely unto Jesus Christ, the Son of God. For then their hearts are free of all defiling phantasies and are not distracted by conflicting desires and intentions. They are wholly absorbed by the contemplation of God. They shall see God, whose hearts have become a reflection of the image of Jesus Christ." -- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

210!

I'll post pictures at 200.

"It matters more that heaven should exist than that any of us should ever get there."

"In deepest solitude there is a road right out of the self, a commerce with something which, by refusing to identify itself with any object of the senses, or anything of which we have biological or social need, or anything imagined, or any state of our own minds, proclaims itself sheerly objective." -- C.S. Lewis

"We give thanks to Thee for Thy great glory." -- Book of Common Prayer

"I Am." -- God

"When Christ calls a man, he bids him come and die."

-- Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost of Discipleship

Strawberries!

And visitors...

Yard Finished

Here's where my lawn is going to be.

Had to bring all this dirt in with my pickup and a shovel to build it up. The stones for the embankment were already here, of course. My truck is filthy. So am I, come to that.

I can't plant yet: too hot right now. I'll wait until late August, and that will also allow it to be rained on several times to help pack it down, and I'll go over it a few more times with the rake and the tamper to get it as flat as possible. I may rent a roller when I plant the grass.

"Who stands fast? Only the man whose final standard is not his reason, his principles, his conscience, his freedom, or his virtue, but who is ready to sacrifice all this when he is called to obedient and responsible action in faith and in exclusive allegiance to God--the responsible man, who tries to make his whole life an answer to the question and call of God." -- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Shakey Graves - Late July

Why is the world of media and pop culture filled with such absolute crap when there are young musicians like this out there making real music?

"There are three things beautiful to see; beautiful before the Lord and men: the harmony of brothers, friendship between neighbors, and a wife and husband well-adjusted together." -- Ecclesiasticus 25:1

Bonhoffer on Learning Spiritual Endurance

"I'm not quite sure how we have largely got into a way of thinking which is positively dangerous. We think that we are acting particularly responsibly if every other week we take another look at the question whether the way on which we have set out is the right one. It is particularly noticeable that such a 'responsible reappraisal' always begins the moment serious difficulties begin to appear. We then speak as though we no longer had 'a proper joy and certainty' about this way, or, still worse, as though God and his Word were no longer as clearly present with us as they used to be. In all this we are ultimately trying to get round what the New Testament calls 'patience' and 'testing'. Paul, at any rate, did not begin to reflect whether his way was the right one when opposition and suffering threatened, nor did Luther. They were both quite certain and glad that they should remain disciples and followers of their Lord. Dear brethren, our real trouble is not doubt about the way upon which we have set out, but our failure to be patient, to keep quiet. We still cannot imagine that today God really doesn't want anything new for us, but simply to prove us in the old way. That is too petty, too monotonous, too undemanding for us. And we simply cannot be constant with the fact that God's cause us not always the successful one, that we really could be 'unsuccessful': and yet be on the right road. But this is where we find out whether we have begun in faith or in a burst of enthusiasm." -- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Well, here's the vinyard finished.

And here's this year's berry harvest. This is just from the ones immediately around my house: didn't have time to get to the rest.

I hope all my other plants do as well as these wild berries; if so, I'll never lack for produce.

"Perhaps I seem to you rather fanatical and mad about a number of things. I myself am sometimes afraid of that. But I know that the day I become more "reasonable", to be honest, I should have to chuck my entire theology." -- Deitrich Bonhoeffer