The Mysterious Distance

It's so hard to know what the right thing to say is. You see or hear things that make your heart leap for joy, fill you with love and hope. You think you know what they mean...but then you're afraid to be sure. What if you're wrong? What if you're reading things into it that aren't there? You fear to say too much, because you don't want to alarm or drive people away. And because you don't want to be an idiot and a fool. And you fear to say too little, because you don't want to hurt them or make them think you don't value them or what they've said. And because you don't want to miss an opportunity. And no matter what you do, it never seems to be exactly right, and you end up with distance and regret.

At least, that's my experience. It doesn't seem like other people have this much trouble with it--do they? Am I the only one who can just never get it right, no matter how hard I try, or how good my intentions?

You know what my idea of heaven is? Being able to love others and be loved without all this fear. I just want to love. That's really all I want out of life.