So it's going to be impossible for me to continue coming to church. I can't go home every Sunday wanting to kill myself.

Now that I've lost it, I find that I was already more attached than I had realized.

I have to return a book, and I'm supposed to attend a post-confirmation thing tomorrow (Thursday) evening. I checked the calendar and didn't see any reason for you to be there at that time. Just by way of fair warning, and hoping that I don't see you. Or rather, to see.... I would always, of course, love to see you, in other circumstances.